OK so I'm not going to go into the greatest of details, so here it is in a nutshell
As some of you may have noticed there are times when i have posted some rather strange posts (yes i know out of near 4400 post some where bound to be strange

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Well all I'm going to say at this time is that 15+ years of issues and other problems decided to all come out at once, but i have decided that enough is enough and no one can bottle everything up and be normal, if there is such a thing.
So i have started to seek help that i really should have got ages ago, medication has been upped so its not too bad at the moment, just waiting on psychiatrist appointment which doctor is referring me too.
So hopefully i should be better soon
I will apologize for those rather stupid posts i have done (no not all 4400 odd of them

) i know i should have not been anywhere near a pc in that state, but then again you don't think straight in that...