You were a child
Crawling on your knees toward him
Making momma so proud
But your voice is too loud
We like to watch you laughing
Picking insects off of plants
No time to think of consequences

(Chorus)
Control yourself
Take only what you need from him
A family of trees wanting to be haunted
Control yourself
Take only what you need from him

The water is warm
But it's sending me shivers
A baby is born
Crying out for attention
Memories fade
Like looking through a fogged mirror
Decisions too
Decisions are made
Decisions are made and not bought
But I thought this wouldn't hurt a lot
I guess not

Thought I would share my favorite websites, or the most used every day. I tend to keep most of these open in a tab in Firefox at all times.

1. Digg.com
2. Gmail (with GCalander and Greader attached)
3. Facebook
4. Socialthing (twitter)
5. OSNN Forums
6. Neowin Forums
7. DeviantART
8. Cheat Happens
9. Revision3
10. WeGame

Those are my usual tabs. Now I tend to visit Gamewallpapers.com, fileplanet.com, Newsbin.com, Games For Windows Live, and a few others all the time. But there is a huge list of websites I do go to once in awhile, normally for research, tech reviews, and all that good stuff, but I am not going to list them

What is your list?

For the ones that read and follow my blog postings, you should already know that I went into the hospital on January 28th for my procedure. Please read my older posts for anyone that does not know what it was for.

Today, March 1st 2009 is 32 days later from that time. As you all know along with that procedure I was once again suppose to start using catheters (at a 14FR size). Well of course my bad habits are still here, and I have yet to start that. And also, my peeing ability seems to have degraded just as fast as any other time. So for some reason, dilation or cutting seems to not last as long as it should anymore. So my only option is the catheter, but am scared to do it of course.

But I feel like if I don't accomplish, even a 10FR tomorrow I might be in a serious problem again. So that is my plan, to put a 10FR in Monday, and if I accomplish that, Tuesday I will try to put a 12FR in (which means self-dilation) and eventually after that, up to a 14FR, all without...

I have been trying to get a loan for $5000CAD, for a purchase. Now I don't want to hear the bad stuff and reason not to get a loan, I know them, and understand them.

My issue is that I can't get one. I have tried my bank and a few other banks in my location. There issue, I haven't been working long enough. So I am asking if you guys know any solutions, suggestions, ideas for me in canada.

Thanks.

Over the years (yes only 20 years) I have noticed a few things about the human body, or more or less about the human mind. As most of you know I am quite the gamer, PC at that. And I spend most of my time playing games. Though sometimes I don't. And that is the point of this post.

I find every once in awhile I tend to not do something I usually do. Like right now for the past 3 days I haven't opened up a game, not because I am busy, or anything like that just because I don't feel like it. Same with some websites, I will for a week, or a month, not view it but eventually go back to it.

None of this is because I am bored with it or anything like that, just because I don't feel like playing all of a sudden. I find it quite weird.

My biggest example of this is Lord Of The Rings Online. I bought this game when it came out, collectors edition. I payed months and months for it, 4 months at a time. I then paid $200 for the lifetime membership, and then bought...