So if you read my other posting, and everything else I write about these days you know what is going on.

Basically even if you look back on my history, I have been trying to use a catheter as a normal routine for years. I am incapable of doing it, I might get the balls up enough to do it once in awhile. So I have come up with a solution.

Well first I am in bad condition, needing of relief very soon before its like previous times and being rushed. That is why tonight around 9PM I am heading to the emergency room (only option) and getting a catheter put in. This of course means I will have a catheter with a bag in for the weekend (hospitals rule), which is fine with me but I lose hours at work. That is not going to be fun, but I can handle someone else doing it.

The next step after it's removed is continuing to use a catheter. Well I am going to be setting up a routine with my family doctor, for some one there each week to do my catheter. Problem solved...

I updated my Deviantart Journal. Some ideas and topics related to my career. Check it out if you can.

http://bmangraphics.deviantart.com/j...7746/#comments

You can all probably guess what I am going to write now these days before I even post. That is my fault, because I am incapable of doing things I need too. And an urge to write about them. Anyways, I have yet to use the catheter on myself, being almost 2 and a half months since the last procedure. Of course currently I am quite worried about my situation, to the point that something I don't want to happen (needing to rush to hospital) might happen. So tomorrow morning is going to be a big day. One because I am making/have made some healthy changes, in terms of eating and exercise and general hi gene. Also I am getting some things I wanted as well. A long with those, I plan on doing the catheter tomorrow, or going to the local client to get it done. 1 way or another.

So after tomorrow, things should be looking up for the better. And if I can pull it all of once and for all, I am going to be quite happy

Plus tomorrow I might finsh a new/old game that I will...

Hey guys,

As you can probably tell, I never updated or replied back to this blog post.

http://forum.osnn.net/blog_callback.php?b=201

Since I never completed it. And of course I am in the same situation. Nothing has really changed, not sure if its worse or not. Does not matter, its still a bad situation. Anyways, I also started to want to be more healthy, better eating, being cleaner (more showers, brushing teeth etc), and a few other things, of course including the catheters with that. This list contains health items, but some other things that I never get done as well.

Maybe if I get something done, and then can check it off it might make me feel good, and want to complete more. Wednesday is the first day for this.

On the side of completing the catheters, I have been thinking. I have done it before, I have had people do it before, its not fun, not pleasant or anything. But at the same time it's not the worst thing in the...

Now I was not going to post this blog post, at least not here. It does not seem to me that there are many fans of the show on the forums, at least there is no sign of the thread without searching. But I needed to write this somewhere.

When this show first came out it was like many of the shows that come out for me, I don't tend to watch many new shows, until later. The show was about season 2 when I decided to pick it up and watch. Of course downloading all of the episodes and catching up. And I have been watching it ever since. The show has actually become my favorite show of all time. Nothing I have ever watched or anything I will ever watch will come close to this show. In terms of action, production, emotion, and any other words you could place with it.

I know many of you know me, at least as much as you can. But one thing you guys probably don't know that even local friends don't even know much, is one thing I believe in and always enjoy talking about is...